Happy Thanksgiving

Today I feel happy, and blessed, and overwhelmingly grateful!  We have wonderful friends who brought us home cookin' for Thanksgiving (thanks you guys!) and Sadie is doing well.  I'm grateful for friends and family.  I'm grateful for our hospital room that allows both Dave and I to stay 24/7.  I'm grateful Evan and Andrew are happy and healthy.  I'm grateful for prayers and faith and my relationship with our Savior. 

I've cried more than usual the past few days, but today I'm happy.  It's a rollercoaster.  Caring for Sadie wears on me after a while.  She just isn't herself and I miss her hugs and smiles. She's such a grump, a very demanding grump!  But I love her to pieces and I know the grumpiness is all because of these nasty steriods. 

Dr. Jeng who admitted us to LPCH is our attending Oncologist this week.  It was great to see his familiar face.  As we chatted, he told the nurse I was "the calmest mother in the world."  Most of the time I am happy and I contribute it all to our faith, the prayers of those around us, and to our trust in the Lord's plan.  But as "calm" as I normally am, once in a while I let myself cry.  I've been missing my cheerful, happy, playful Sadie. 

But today, I feel happy!  I went home tonight and did a little more prepping of our house for bringing her home.  (The date is still undetermined because we are waiting for her ANC to go up. The higher this number, the better her immune system.  Right now she is in the 30s, and they want her to be in the 500s before we go home.)  But she's off any and all machines.  Everything we are doing now are things we will be able to do as an outpatient or from home when we get there.  I am ready!  And in my heart, I feel like that day will be very soon. 

It will be a good day.

Here's a photo, just because I love photos more than my words.